Ouch...!!!!

Occasionaly when life hits me hard, I ask this question to myself multiple times that am I working hard? Am I working good enough? or Am I working all the time? The answer is mostly no and this is really frustrating. I am a confused entity and a worried one too. I am worried whether I am gonna be wealthy or not, whether I will be able to keep my family happy, whether I will always have good hair cause I really love my hair. For an unnoticeable person even the very normal thing he has matters very much and my hair for me is one of those things.

When I was in my school I used to think that I would remain stick to a safe path you know studying well and then get a good job but presently I am on a way way different track, I used to feel very certain and fixed but now I feel my journey as of most uncertain kind. I have this fear that I am sure about everybody else has in my circle but I can’t feel sure for myself if am gonna get success or satisfaction. I like Jack Sparrow (Pirates of the Caribbean) and Tony Stark (Ironman) two of my favourite characters but having their personal lives ruined. I feel connected to them but one of them is an intelligent captain and other one is a resourceful genius but me I don’t have such credentials so yes I am very much afraid of this uncertainty whipped over me. I am not rich and my father is getting older sooner or later it all will be over me and believe me for a guy who is pretty much uncertain alike me this thought is very very scary. Well life often sucks but I believe in keep working, goodness and innocence, these are godly features and it's not easy to continue them even though all human beings are born with these features. Anyway in total I am lost in uncertainty for an uncertain duration but I am so smoking hopefull that I can still watch Netflix and chill.